So much to tell.... but i have no desire to tell anyone... i hid the truth, and tell only what people need and want to hear...

i need to calm myself everyday... saying that everything is going to be okay... keep praying that i can go through everyday of my life without any trouble... trying very hard to improve myself... that is all i can do right now...

its almost the end of the year now... are all my resolution for this year achieved? i didn't remember anymore... so many things happen, and yet so many things undone...

i didn't regret anything that already happen... if there is one thing i regret most is not being happy for the whole year...

nah... the beginning of another year is coming... i'm not sure if i'm going to make another unachievable resolution. my moods are not stable this past few weeks... the world is becoming dusty all of the sudden... it tears my eyes...

hopefully i can survive and be great in everything i do. gonna find my lost spirit before i turn myself into a zombie... even though being a zombie is kind of cool... hehe~~